Yesterday I thought of you.
Today I am thinking of you.
Yesterday you were a spark.
Today you are my light.
Yesterday I admired you.
Today I love you.
Today I want you.
Tomorrow I will want you more.
Today I need you.
Tomorrow I will need you more.
Today I love you.
Tomorrow I will love you more.
Tomorrow I will remember you.
Forever you can be mine.
Tomorrow I want to have you around.
Forever I would share my life with you.
Tomorrow I will love you.
Forever I love you.
You
No one makes me feel the way you do.
I would walk miles to be with you.
You have a heart of gold.
One that God must have molded.
You have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen.
They are so warm and far from being mean.
You wear a smile that says pure love.
One that must have come from Heaven above.
No one makes me feel the way you do.
I only want to be with you.
Your touch is the best I have ever felt.
It often makes me feel as if I will melt.
Love Or Lust
Is love really seeing stars,
feeling your blood pumping hard,
wondering if your heart will ever slow down,
saying things that make you feel like a clown?
Does love make you want to be closer to the person who makes you feel this way,
and make you think about them every day?
Wondering if they're thinking of you as much?
Waiting to get just one more touch?
How long does this feeling last?
Is it a spell that someone casts?
Is it love or is it lust?
I need to know, I really must.
Remember
Rub your hands down my spine,
as you pull your body next to mine.
Whisper something softly in my ear,
while you're holding me tight and near.
Kiss my lips real hard.
Make me see the stars.
Lay me down my little pet,
for you know I'm hot and very wet.
Make love to me while the day is still young,
and when night falls, remember the way this day begun.
Let Me Be Me
If sometimes you turned me loose
from this cage,
You wouldn't have to worry about me
trying to escape.
Let me be me.
You don't have to set me free.
Just let me be me.
If you could stop thinking
I was always bad,
Then maybe you wouldn't
be so sad.
Let me be me.
I don't want to be free.
But let me be me.
You Loved Me Away
You never wanted to hear a word I had to say,
cause you thought it didn't matter anyway.
Nothing I do is ever good enough,
and we always fight so much.
I feel like I'm being smothered.
I don't want this kind of love.
You think you know everything.
I no longer want the reasons for this ring.
I told you someday you would pay.
Well, you've finally loved me away.
Uncried Tears
She never allows herself to cry,
but if you look real close you can see
the tears in her eyes.
She tries to hold them back with every blink,
knowing it's harder than she thinks.
Not much longer can she hide her pain.
She's about to go insane.
She believes in no one or nothing.
Listen closely and you can hear
her heart sadly sing.
Her self esteem is really low.
Sometimes she thinks the world is cold as snow.
She pretends to be strong
to hide her fears,
but oh what will she do
when comes down the uncried tears.
Giving Up
I'm just waiting to die,
sigh after sigh.
Waiting for the breathing to stop.
Waiting for my body to drop.
I don't want no more time,
in this world of hate and crime.
This world is not a good place to live.
No one has any love to give.
The thoughts that run through my mind
are ugly and unkind.
The pain in my heart
is tearing me apart.
I hate this life.
or at least mine.
So I'm giving up
with the worlds nasty shove.
My Heart Cries
It seems in pain,
I sacrifice myself for others.
Sometimes to be a friend,
but mostly to be a lover.
I put aside my own happiness
just to please them.
But no matter how hard I try,
no one is happy in the end.
The pretense of my smiles
is getting harder to hide,
and so are the tears
that roll from my eyes.
It seems that no one knows
that I hurt inside
or that my lonely heart cries.
I long for the time when love comes.
When all the pretending can be done.
When I can love and be loved
without any sacrifices,
beacuse we know it's love done right.
May love mend my broken heart,
with a man good from the start.
May he wipe the tears from my eyes
and stop my lonely hearts cries.
I Could Not Find Love
I turned over a rock; dug some earth;
climbed a tree, but still, I could not find love.
I bought a new dress; changed my hair;
put on a mask, but still, I could not find love.
I've laughed; I've cried; told the truth and even lied,
but still, I could not find love.
I've opened my eyes; I've closed my eyes; done a lot of pretending,
but still, I could not find love.
No One Will
When she is lonely and needs a friend,
who will be there for her to turn to?
No one will, cause no one cares if she is blue.
When she falls to her knees,
who will help her stand?
No one will, cause no one has a helping hand.
When the tears run down her face,
who will wipe her eyes?
No one will, cause no one sees her cry.
When her heart breaks into,
who will help her mend it?
No one will, cause no one gives a shit.
TURNED
I liked when we were playful.
I liked when we laughed.
I liked when we were silly.
I liked when we danced in public places
or the privacy of our home.
I liked when you held me when I cried.
I liked when we held hands.
I liked when we hugged.
I liked when we kissed.
I liked the way we had sex.
I liked the way you encouraged me to do stuff.
I liked the way we just talked.
I liked the time we spent together....
BUT those things got tainted for me.
They were spoiled by the things I didn't like...
I didn't like being disrespected.
I didn't like being talked mean to.
I didn't like being ignored.
I didn't like being lied to.
I didn't like being treated clueless.
I didn't like my heart and mind being played with.
I didn't like being hurt.
I didn't like being used...
ALL the things I didn't like were more powerful
than the things I did like
and that power took the pleasure from the things I once enjoyed.
LOVE HAS TAUGHT ME
I don't know why I should believe in love.
I don't know if I do believe in love.
I don't know that I want to believe in love.
It's not at all what I've hoped for.
It's nothing I want any more.
It's about not caring for anyone.
It's about being pretty and having sex with everyone.
It's about disrespect and use.
It's about feelings of sadness so blue.
It's about lies and deceit.
It's not at all kind or sweet.
Love has taught me that I'm not good enough
for anyone and that no one will be true to me
and that no one will respect me.
No one will be kind or sweet to me
unless it's in pretence to use me.
No one will care about my feelings, wants or needs.
And no one will love me.
Love is being lonesome and crying.
Love is being so lonesome you want to die.
Lonesome is love gone blind.
Love, Find Me A Home
Love, find me a home.
Some place I can call my own.
Some place I can feel alive.
Not where I want to die.
Love, find me a home.
With someone so I wont be alone.
With someone who will love me like I am.
A person that I can understand.
Will there ever be a place for me?
A place where I can feel so free?
Have no reasons to worry?
And don't always have to be in a hurry?
Will I ever know true happiness?
Does my head always have to be a mess?
Love, find me a home.
Make the pain all gone.
Make my days worth living
and my heart forgiving.
Pain
I'm full of pain and when you prick me it will come out.
I may cuss, cry or shout.
It may take minutes, hours or days.
One thing for certain it will come out some way.
I'm not going to be someone's physical or mental punching bag.
Often times that means I'll say words that may make a grown man gag.
I'm not a toilet to be shit on.
I'm a human with feelings just like Jane or John.
Yes I'm sad.
Sometimes it gets real bad.
Yes I cry.
You don't see it because I hide.
I wont beg for anyone to befriend, like or love me.
Either they wont or they will freely.
Melinda Fay Gilman
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Melinda Gilman
P.O. Box 212
Ranger, WV 25557