My name is Melinda Fay Gilman. I'm 43. I was born March 31 1966. I'm from West Virginia. I'm 5ft3, weight- too much. I have medium length blonde hair (dyed ) and blue eyes. Divorced. No kids, not sure if I can have them. I have 3 favorite colors, pink, blue and purple. My favorite flower is a carnation. I love perfume, rainbows, naked trees and fruit flavored teas. I love to love on puppies. I have 1 dog. I don't eat meat. I do smoke cigarettes. I do drink sometimes. I don't do drugs. I like to dance sometimes. I like a little country and a little rock. Elvis Presley is my favorite singer. I like to interact with the tv when I'm watching it. Laughing out loud to it and even cussing and crying at it. I like to read self help and true stories sometimes. I'm addicted to the computer. I like to make videos and put them on youtube. I'm pretty much a home body. I'm mainly quiet and shy. I don't really like getting out in the public very much. I like warm hearted people. I don't like angry actions. I like to joke. I require a lot of attention. {{{ A LOT }}} and I also NEED to give a lot of attention. It is smothering to someone who don't like a lot of it but it is a gift to those who need it. :-) I am child like. My feelings are easily hurt. I'm jealous. I suffer from some anxiety and major depression. And I'm nuts.
Crazy is the most popular word to describe me by a lot of people who don't understand me. Melinda is a complex person but if I had to choose just 1 word to describe me it would be melancholy but there's a lot of words to describe Melinda. Impatient, procrastinator, lover, hater, jealous, immature, shy, sexy, silly, serious, joker, couragous, coward, smart, ignorant, funny, boring, pretty, ugly, good, bad, imaginative, creative.
I sit on a fence and see both sides. If you ask me the same question at different times, it's very possible you could get different answers and all still be true. I want to talk. I don't want to talk. I want to be left alone. I don't want to be ignored, for I need a lot of attention. I want touch. I don't want touch. I want to laugh. I want to cry. I give. I take. I love people. I hate people. I want to heal you. I want to hurt you. I love me. I hate me. I'm not afraid of anything. I'm afraid of everything. I'm old. I'm young. I have no age for age is not important. I'm big. I'm little. I'm fat. I'm skinny. I'm weak. I'm strong. I'm funny. I'm boring. I'm happy. I'm sad. I understand. I'm confused. I'm afraid of change. I'm looking forward to change.I don't want to go to sleep. I don't want to wake up. I'm dirty. I'm clean. I'm tired. I have energy. I like to read. I hate to read. I like to learn. I hate learning. I like music. I hate music. I love to dance. I can't dance. I like any noise for the silence can be too loud. I hate all noise for even the softest sound hurts. I like to write. I can't write. I think too much. I can't think at all. I know things before they happen. I never see it coming. I'm shy. Hee hee, I'm not. Told ya I was nuts.
I've learned that some things we want but don't get, that in time we end up glad we didn't get it and I have also learned that some things we want, we already had, but it was hid by fear, doubt and other clutter.
You don't always choose the thoughts that come into your mind, but you do choose to keep the thoughts or get rid of them. You don't always choose the feelings that come, but you do choose to keep the feelings or let them go. You don't always choose the actions that you start out with, but you do choose to carry them out or put a stop to them. You don't always choose the words that come from your mouth, but you do choose to keep speaking or stop.
I know this woman who no matter what she does can't make men happy past a temporary trance.They always want more than she is. She is only one woman not 3. She can not be a red head, blonde or brunette all at once. She can not be tiny and big at the same time. She can not be white and black. She can not be young and old. She is not a man and a woman and she can never be beautiful because God did not bless her with beauty. She is a pro at making men angry and hate her. If you see her you should run the other way..
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Melinda Gilman
P.O. Box 212
Ranger, WV 25557